Weeks 20-24

These past few weeks of pregnancy have been good. The baby has been kicking loads, which – while impractical when trying to sleep – is honestly the most amazing feeling in the world. I’m still not showing very much, which is quite baffling to me as tomorrow it is only FIFTEEN WEEKS UNTIL THIS LITTLE BUB IS DUE. But I’m enjoying that too, as walking and exercise is still fun for me. My 22^nd week was spent in the Peak District with my parents, doing lots of walking. R joined us for a couple of days which obviously made it a million times better, but in itself it was a really amazing week. I surprised myself with what my body still felt really comfortable doing, and the last day there we did a ten mile walk which just felt good. I still felt very agile and relaxed, which was probably the first time during pregnancy that I had felt that.

That week was my first really good, almost totally migraine free week that I’ve had since about week 6, and since then I haven’t had a proper migraine. That is a life changing situation to be in, because I can actually function properly as opposed to feeling like an awful zombie.

I’m back to eating porridge and am enjoying it, which is definitely a relief because I was really stuck on breakfast ideas. I am still on absurd amounts of tuna sandwiches, and also had a couple of days of egg sandwiches. This week all I’ve been thinking about is burritos and burgers, but I think that’s less of a pregnancy craving and more of a me craving.

The week before we went to the Peak District I had my anomaly scan, which R of course made sure to be there for. I don’t think either of us would have liked it if we weren’t both there.

The scan was honestly just incredible. I didn’t remotely feel tearful at the first two scans, nor when I felt the baby more for the first time, but when we were watching the blood pumping through that tiny heart on the screen in front of us, my eyes definitely got wet. The previous scans had only lasted about five minutes, whereas due to the nature of the anomaly scan being an in depth look at how the baby is growing, this scan lasted much longer. Being able to spend so much time looking at our little bub, at the hands and feet and tiny nose was quite incredible. It makes it feel a lot more real.

I have another scan at 28 weeks and I’m so excited to see the changes and growth in baby.

The past couple of weeks have mostly been locked in the studio with T, recording the vocals for the upcoming Nevermind Me album, so really I haven’t thought a lot about being pregnant. I think I’m very focussed on having things ready and getting stuff done that I’m distracting from the fact that at the end of this I’m going to give birth and we’re going to have a child.

For a while that was filling me with a great deal of fear because I have a lot of worries about not being a good mother. Now, however, I’m mostly at a point where I am just so excited. The main thing that I keep telling myself is that R and I are insanely in love and we already love baby such incredible amounts that nothing else really matters. We’ve got my family’s support, and an amazing group of friends that are really rooting for us both and anything else that comes along is insignificant to those things. I know R and I are the best team, and I can’t imagine anyone else in the world that I could be more excited to raise a child with than R. And in those things I have absolute trust, so everything else falls by the wayside.

I’m going to be 25 weeks tomorrow and cannot believe how quickly this pregnancy is flying by. Bring it.